back and ready for a short week!

is heading home after a fun and interesting vegas experience!

is in vegas this weekend

is elated to have his baby back!

today? maybe? hopefully there's not too much traffic from ontario to riverside seeing that sore legs and hard clutches don't go so well together.

one more day... :'(

@ is picking up his baby TONIGHT! btw... gmail themed!

time to shop for a lender! AND car eta tomorrow night!

is going into a two week escrow starting today/tomorrow!

is hungry. what's for lunch?!

@ is looking for anyone developing iphone apps using the gcc from cydia... anyone?

is preparing for the caffeine withdrawal.. the headaches already started...

is a bit tired without coffee

thinks he may have gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD)!!!

is taking suggestions on tattoos and the location of... only serious suggestions need respond. =p

has been awake since 3am from a bad dream. :'(

is thinking fitment issues will push the project 2 weeks out. shop eta is next week. my eta is one additional week tacked onto theirs.

hopes society isn't lonely without him

is enjoying a bowl of cereal before bed!

got rejected from getting on his bus bound for home since it was full due to a disabled christian man that visits campus every day to recruit new souls...

is groovin to dean martin

is expecting the return of his baby this coming Saturday

wishes everyone a happy halloween and enjoy those mini skirts! woOT wOot!

just got an orgasm at work gawkin at his new dubs

is bumpin the early 90s old school hiphop tunes

is done with lunch. onto pumpkin pie!

is across the bridge for luncho!

snuggles with gwen and dreams of his car. Ohhhhhh the excitement!!!

misses his car, but excited everything is coming together.

just got back from yogurtland and campus... oh the girls in short shorts.. HOT

@ is enjoying a caramel macchiato and checking on daily news, facebook, hotornot, etc etc!

primer getting slapped on this weekend.. then two more weeks!

is searching for costume ideas this year... any thoughts or suggestions?!

is enjoying a nice cold slurpee.

is now carless for about a month while his baby is getting a make over. let the countdown begin!

is taking his baby in for a makeover tomorrow. won't be going out for the next few weeks!

is now watching a dog of flanders

is watching the never ending story

wow, is it me? or is it actually COLD right now?

has retracted his offer... will be looking at more potentials soon!

is anxious his offer was accepted. Now into escrow we go!

is reading Steppenwolf in bed

is watching the crazy DOW tank!

has finally witnessed a Korean get wasted tonight. ;-p

is the new past!



amazed the fresh meat this year is yet again o soooo yummmy =)

is out chillin with danny, jen and ray!

almost blacked out at the gym

sits outside in solitude enjoying the light breeze under the shade from the beating sun with the rustling of leaves all around conjuring images of deep thought

is going to kick some ass with his new tennis racket today!

experienced the first time being kicked out of a club

is exhausted from house hunting

is searching for a good body shop that doesn't cost 12k for a bodykit install and new coat of paint...

is watching 90210. Times have changed...

is thinking that he has to NOW send his car to the body shop sooner than planned after his hood decided it wanted to high five his windshield!

is wondering what to do next.

is wondering when he'll reach the prime of his life @31

is finally sleeping early again

is playing with pingfm. lemme know if anyone needs an invite. ;)

testing out pingfm blog feature

so the day is coming where all the social networks will be but one huge chaos. i can now broadcast, thanks to pingfm, to all my blogs from a central dashboard, im, phone... interface. watch out folks!

pingfm is friggin awesome!

this should only update my status from this bot

testing blog post from pingfm-aim!

Testing ping... 1 2 3

siddhartha

well its about time i finished another book. always difficult to find some quiet time without falling asleep in this heat.

here's what i got out of it:

* Siddhartha points out "When someone seeks, then it happens all too easily that his eyes will see only the thing he is seeking, that he cannot find anything, cannot let anything in, because he is always thinking only of that thing he seeks, because he has a goal, because he is possessed by the goal. Seeking means: having a goal. But finding means: being free, being open, having no goal."

* "One can convey knowledge but not wisdom. One can find wisdom, one can live it, one can be borne by it, one can work wonders with it, but one can neither speak it nor teach it."

* "Time is not real.... And if time is not real, then the span that seems to lie between world and eternity, between suffering and bliss, between evil and good, also is an illusion."

now if you're interested in these key points, i'll be glad to explain and elaborate on them. after all each point can be a book on its own, but none the less VERY insightful.

^.^

friend vs acquaintance

so i'm looking at my chat buddy list just now and realized how misconstrued my definition of a friend was before i got it organized. why did i start to organize my buddy list you might ask? well one reason was i couldn't see who was online without having to scroll up and down even on the highest resolution. i've met a lot of ppl in my time. naively enough though, i presumed all of them to be friends. at some point though, i think they were. but being a friend is a two way streak i think.

i'm tired of being the only one reaching out to some of these so called friends. some i know are busy, but that's no excuse to not be able to drop a quick message or email or phone call saying what's up. i have true friends that do that even if they are busy with life you know what i mean? i mean, i reach out even if i'm busy myself. i think ppl use the term friends too loosely these days. just like love and a few other words i'm sure you can think of.

so when is time for ppl to reassess their definitions of certain terms? well for me, as i'm getting older, it's a matter of convenience really. i only need to talk to and spend time with friends that return the same sentiment i feel towards them. after all, i'm not a kid anymore where knowing lots of ppl meant that you are cool. i'll leave that game to the kids to play.

this is not to say that shut myself out from making new friends. ;) i'm always open to new friends, i'm just more selective is all. my buddy list now consists of maybe a handful of names i would chat to often. the rest are a collapse acquaintance list.

i apologize to my friends now if you are reading this... because now you get ALL my attention! ;)

news from abroad

so... got back from my trip to paris maybe a few days ago. on our last night there, i got news from a fellow traveler from canada that in july, amsterdam will ban smoking in their cafe smoke shops. just a heads up for those that have some vacation time to head over there before july!

happy 420'ing!

old school convo ;)

(11:02:14 PM) bluenerv: oh shit! nuthin be a g thang!
(11:02:22 PM) bluenerv: bumpin
(11:02:31 PM) tee: oh lord
(11:02:34 PM) tee: get out of the past dood
(11:02:36 PM) bluenerv: two loc'ed out niggas going crazy!
(11:02:38 PM) tee: and listen to new wave
(11:02:42 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:02:44 PM) tee: lol
(11:03:01 PM) tee: your a vietnamese fraud!
(11:03:03 PM) bluenerv: ain't no pussy good enuf
(11:03:28 PM) bluenerv: its fo me to make my impression felt
(11:08:10 PM) bluenerv: its time you get some old school gangsta shit bumpin in your car =)
(11:08:19 PM) tee: ahha
(11:08:21 PM) bluenerv: none of the girlie new wave gay shiznits
(11:08:22 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:08:22 PM) tee: girls like newwave
(11:08:26 PM) tee: ahha
(11:08:32 PM) bluenerv: you want bad ass girls =p
(11:08:40 PM) bluenerv: not some girlie girl =)
(11:08:46 PM) bluenerv: she ain't no good in bed yo
(11:08:47 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:09:05 PM) bluenerv: give me 7 seas.. and 11 g's
(11:12:44 PM) bluenerv: oh man.. good memories yo
(11:12:51 PM) bluenerv: warreng
(11:13:15 PM) bluenerv: back in my nigga days twas sweet ;)
(11:13:50 PM) tee: lol i have all that shits
(11:13:52 PM) tee: boooring
(11:13:54 PM) bluenerv: gotta put me some hydraulics on the deuce ;)
(11:13:59 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:15:49 PM) bluenerv: tick tock ya dun stop
(11:15:57 PM) bluenerv: i wanna sex you up!
(11:16:15 PM) bluenerv: come inside take off your clothes i'll make you feel at home
(11:16:21 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:16:27 PM) bluenerv: now that'll get the girls =)
(11:16:30 PM) tee: bel biv devo
(11:16:36 PM) bluenerv: we can do it till we both wakeup
(11:16:36 PM) tee: bobby brown
(11:16:38 PM) tee: new edition
(11:16:44 PM) bluenerv: another bad creation =)
(11:16:48 PM) bluenerv: color me badd
(11:16:51 PM) tee: ya
(11:16:52 PM) tee: all that
(11:16:55 PM) tee: on youtubers
(11:16:58 PM) tee: all day long
(11:16:59 PM) bluenerv: good good shit =)
(11:17:47 PM) bluenerv: boys II men
(11:17:51 PM) bluenerv: all for one
(11:17:52 PM) tee: silk
(11:17:56 PM) bluenerv: man oh man
(11:17:56 PM) tee: new kids on the block
(11:18:01 PM) bluenerv: keith sweat
(11:18:04 PM) tee: immature
(11:18:06 PM) tee: keith martin
(11:18:10 PM) bluenerv: wtf
(11:18:11 PM) tee: richard marx
(11:18:14 PM) bluenerv: hahaha
(11:18:20 PM) bluenerv: back to your gay roots =p
(11:18:24 PM) tee: i can go on for days
(11:18:26 PM) tee: you got shit on me dood
(11:18:30 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:18:33 PM) bluenerv: too short
(11:18:36 PM) bluenerv: nwa
(11:18:41 PM) tee: you white music listening viet fraud!
(11:18:43 PM) bluenerv: milli vanilli
(11:18:46 PM) bluenerv: vanilla ice
(11:18:50 PM) tee: snow
(11:18:53 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:18:57 PM) bluenerv: i have that still =)
(11:18:58 PM) tee: positive k
(11:19:07 PM) tee: wrex n effects
(11:19:14 PM) tee: naughty by nature
(11:19:16 PM) bluenerv: onyx
(11:19:19 PM) tee: onxy
(11:19:21 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:19:22 PM) tee: ya lol
(11:19:25 PM) bluenerv: slam!
(11:19:30 PM) tee: duh duh daaaa
(11:19:35 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:19:40 PM) tee: kris kross
(11:19:46 PM) tee: house of pain
(11:19:53 PM) tee: young mc
(11:19:59 PM) bluenerv: naughty by nature
(11:20:01 PM) tee: bust n move
(11:20:08 PM) tee: run dmc
(11:20:18 PM) bluenerv: beastie boys
(11:20:43 PM) bluenerv: jodeci
(11:20:46 PM) bluenerv: swv
(11:20:53 PM) bluenerv: salt and peppa =)
(11:20:59 PM) bluenerv: envogue
(11:21:10 PM) bluenerv: what else ya gots
(11:21:10 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:21:15 PM) tee: shit
(11:21:17 PM) tee: yoru cheating
(11:21:22 PM) tee: stop lookin it up
(11:21:23 PM) bluenerv: who says =p
(11:21:30 PM) tee: paperboy
(11:21:32 PM) tee: ll cool j
(11:21:32 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:21:34 PM) tee: coolio
(11:21:38 PM) tee: tlc
(11:21:46 PM) bluenerv: nah uh. you ain't go there
(11:21:52 PM) bluenerv: easy e
(11:21:54 PM) tee: aliyah
(11:21:57 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:22:04 PM) tee: too short
(11:22:07 PM) bluenerv: kc & jojo
(11:22:13 PM) tee: usher
(11:22:14 PM) bluenerv: i already said too short =p
(11:22:14 PM) tee: hahah
(11:22:23 PM) bluenerv: usher ain't old school =p
(11:22:27 PM) tee: lol
(11:22:29 PM) bluenerv: babyface!
(11:22:31 PM) bluenerv: 112
(11:22:36 PM) bluenerv: brian mcknight
(11:22:46 PM) bluenerv: jagged edge =)
(11:22:51 PM) bluenerv: oh snaps
(11:22:52 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:22:52 PM) tee: yawns
(11:23:00 PM) tee: shai
(11:23:03 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:23:10 PM) bluenerv: kid n play
(11:23:23 PM) bluenerv: dj jazzy jeff and the fresh pince
(11:23:34 PM) bluenerv: dr dre!
(11:23:39 PM) bluenerv: damn dude
(11:23:40 PM) bluenerv: OG
(11:24:09 PM) bluenerv: pharcyde (sp?)
(11:24:10 PM) bluenerv: hehe
(11:24:15 PM) tee: lol
(11:24:20 PM) tee: da brat
(11:24:22 PM) bluenerv: westside connection
(11:24:23 PM) tee: dmx
(11:24:29 PM) bluenerv: da brat.. damn
(11:24:31 PM) bluenerv: good one =)
(11:24:34 PM) bluenerv: nas
(11:24:42 PM) tee: ligther shade of brown
(11:24:44 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:24:45 PM) bluenerv: damn
(11:24:50 PM) bluenerv: another good one =)
(11:24:50 PM) tee: masta ace
(11:24:55 PM) tee: method man
(11:25:00 PM) bluenerv: notorious!
(11:25:02 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:25:02 PM) tee: excape
(11:25:06 PM) bluenerv: 2pac!
(11:25:08 PM) bluenerv: dude
(11:25:09 PM) tee: foxy brown
(11:25:15 PM) bluenerv: you missed some legends ;)
(11:25:20 PM) bluenerv: mase
(11:25:39 PM) tee: allure
(11:25:50 PM) bluenerv: keep it up yo. you're almost catching up to me ;)
(11:25:52 PM) tee: one of my all time fav..is digable planes
(11:25:58 PM) tee: planets
(11:25:59 PM) bluenerv: oh snaps
(11:26:00 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:26:06 PM) tee: cause im cool like dat
(11:26:06 PM) tee: lol
(11:26:07 PM) bluenerv: blackstreet =)
(11:26:17 PM) bluenerv: fugees!
(11:26:39 PM) bluenerv: genuwine
(11:26:48 PM) tee: lol
(11:26:51 PM) tee: ok ok i give up
(11:27:08 PM) bluenerv: shit. who sings tennessee
(11:27:12 PM) tee: haha
(11:27:14 PM) tee: too easy
(11:27:20 PM) bluenerv: on the tip
(11:27:21 PM) tee: arested developement
(11:27:24 PM) bluenerv: damn
(11:27:25 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:27:30 PM) tee: mr wendel
(11:27:34 PM) bluenerv: yup
(11:27:40 PM) bluenerv: wyclef
(11:28:23 PM) bluenerv: shoot
(11:28:34 PM) bluenerv: i'm wayz ahead
(11:28:34 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:28:51 PM) tee: lol
(11:29:59 PM) bluenerv: damn.. missed kai
(11:30:11 PM) bluenerv: black sheep
(11:30:31 PM) bluenerv: a tribe called quest
(11:31:06 PM) bluenerv: fat joe
(11:31:38 PM) bluenerv: krs-one
(11:31:46 PM) bluenerv: snoop!
(11:32:00 PM) bluenerv: fat joe
(11:32:00 PM) tee: justin timbalake
(11:32:03 PM) bluenerv: ice cube
(11:32:05 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:32:09 PM) tee: chris brown
(11:32:11 PM) tee: omario
(11:32:12 PM) tee: n
(11:32:15 PM) bluenerv: you mean nsync =p
(11:32:18 PM) bluenerv: that's older yo
(11:32:19 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:32:41 PM) tee: ahh shit
(11:32:45 PM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TC37P5ukwNU
(11:32:50 PM) bluenerv: c+c music factory
(11:32:59 PM) tee: omgat i foudn this song
(11:33:09 PM) bluenerv: tevin cambil
(11:33:11 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:33:24 PM) tee: thank god for youtube
(11:33:30 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:33:30 PM) tee: ahah i see fat joe
(11:33:32 PM) tee: 1994
(11:33:33 PM) tee: lol
(11:34:21 PM) bluenerv: johnny gill
(11:34:33 PM) tee: da youngstas
(11:34:37 PM) bluenerv: kool and the gang
(11:34:56 PM) bluenerv: the gap band
(11:34:59 PM) bluenerv: mc hammer!
(11:35:25 PM) bluenerv: tony toni tone
(11:35:34 PM) tee: lol
(11:35:41 PM) bluenerv: domino!
(11:35:46 PM) bluenerv: heavy d!
(11:35:51 PM) tee: oh ya domino
(11:36:06 PM) bluenerv: sir mix a lot
(11:36:06 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:36:10 PM) tee: rappin foe tay
(11:36:19 PM) bluenerv: dj kool
(11:36:22 PM) bluenerv: dj quick
(11:36:29 PM) bluenerv: oh good one =)
(11:36:45 PM) bluenerv: sugar hill gang =)
(11:38:41 PM) bluenerv: did we already say wrex n effex?
(11:38:46 PM) tee: yup
(11:38:49 PM) bluenerv: damn
(11:38:50 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:38:51 PM) tee: rump shaker
(11:38:59 PM) bluenerv: all i wanna do is a
(11:39:21 PM) tee: can we talk
(11:39:26 PM) tee: tevin camp ..
(11:39:29 PM) tee: i love that song
(11:39:29 PM) tee: lol
(11:39:30 PM) bluenerv: ahh
(11:39:31 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:40:01 PM) tee: total
(11:40:12 PM) tee: swv
(11:40:13 PM) bluenerv: i almost got informer lyrics down
(11:40:15 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:40:22 PM) bluenerv: i already said swv =p
(11:40:24 PM) tee: dam
(11:40:31 PM) bluenerv: them lyrics was crazy
(11:40:48 PM) bluenerv: faster then ditty by paperboy =)
(11:40:49 PM) tee: here you go
(11:40:50 PM) tee: lol
(11:40:54 PM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pK-JkHDAW7A
(11:41:02 PM) tee: gota bob your head to this song
(11:41:30 PM) bluenerv: lol. i loved that song
(11:41:39 PM) bluenerv: snaps yo. snaps
(11:41:40 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:41:43 PM) bluenerv: good base
(11:41:45 PM) bluenerv: bass
(11:41:48 PM) tee: haha ya
(11:41:49 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:41:52 PM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8tS0-kMGOMw
(11:41:54 PM) tee: shes soo hots
(11:42:23 PM) bluenerv: dude. gotta finish this first =)
(11:42:29 PM) tee: lol
(11:42:38 PM) bluenerv: can't disrespects =p
(11:42:47 PM) bluenerv: what's the diner song
(11:42:53 PM) bluenerv: that's good shits too
(11:42:54 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:42:57 PM) tee: wats that?
(11:43:03 PM) bluenerv: one sec
(11:43:48 PM) bluenerv: oh shits.. you READY?!
(11:43:49 PM) bluenerv: http://youtube.com/watch?v=8cy5Xn42Ymo
(11:43:51 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:44:05 PM) bluenerv: suzanne vega yo
(11:44:08 PM) tee: oh ahha
(11:44:15 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:44:16 PM) tee: oh ya..try this one
(11:45:11 PM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ka9mCmx9Jhs
(11:45:12 PM) tee: ahhah
(11:45:49 PM) bluenerv: lol. why you gotta bring in that girlie shiznits
(11:45:50 PM) bluenerv: lol
(11:45:55 PM) tee: you started it
(11:45:56 PM) tee: lol
(11:45:57 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:52:17 PM) bluenerv: de la soul
(11:52:19 PM) bluenerv: man
(11:54:42 PM) bluenerv: oh shit. almost forgots marky mark
(11:54:59 PM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKriidFbnGg&feature=related
(11:56:18 PM) bluenerv: haha
(11:56:41 PM) bluenerv: i'm gonna collect all these cds =)
(11:56:55 PM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-Lubur9G6s&feature=related
(11:56:56 PM) tee: ahhaha
(11:56:59 PM) tee: homies
(11:57:16 PM) tee: it bumps
(11:57:22 PM) bluenerv: there's some songs i forget the group
(11:59:30 PM) bluenerv: gotta ride to da homies one of deez weekenz =)
(11:59:42 PM) tee: lol
(11:59:59 PM) bluenerv: man i need a sounds systems
(04/15/2008 12:00:04 AM) tee: lol noo
(12:00:04 AM) bluenerv: sad
(12:00:07 AM) tee: you need bbk
(12:00:09 AM) tee: ahha
(12:00:11 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:00:20 AM) tee: ya i could tell you was enjoying loud music
(12:00:53 AM) tee: omgat
(12:01:00 AM) tee: you remember this
(12:02:18 AM) bluenerv: remember wha
(12:02:42 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GHoDM3FsVgc
(12:02:49 AM) tee: shit bumps yo
(12:03:10 AM) bluenerv: oh shit! that's one that i fogots
(12:03:10 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:03:17 AM) bluenerv: there's still some more!
(12:03:19 AM) tee: ahha it was cools shit
(12:03:19 AM) bluenerv: find it!
(12:03:24 AM) tee: wat kind?
(12:03:24 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:03:28 AM) bluenerv: hmm
(12:03:32 AM) tee: raps?
(12:03:37 AM) bluenerv: yups
(12:03:42 AM) bluenerv: old school power106
(12:03:44 AM) tee: girl or man?
(12:03:50 AM) bluenerv: man
(12:03:51 AM) tee: group or solo
(12:03:55 AM) bluenerv: it was around this time
(12:04:09 AM) tee: wat kinda beats
(12:04:50 AM) tee: theres also
(12:04:51 AM) bluenerv: well around the same times as conscious daughters
(12:04:58 AM) tee: funk doobious
(12:05:04 AM) tee: bow wow wow
(12:05:10 AM) tee: i mean
(12:05:11 AM) bluenerv: those i know
(12:05:18 AM) tee: funk newbian?
(12:05:19 AM) tee: lol
(12:05:24 AM) bluenerv: there were some singles i fogets
(12:05:29 AM) tee: alcholics?
(12:05:34 AM) tee: make room
(12:05:35 AM) bluenerv: hmm
(12:05:42 AM) bluenerv: it's this bumpin songs
(12:05:43 AM) tee: liquid
(12:05:46 AM) bluenerv: deep bass
(12:06:11 AM) tee: hmm
(12:06:14 AM) tee: need more hints lol
(12:07:58 AM) bluenerv: haha. if i remembered some of the lyrics i could look it up =)
(12:07:59 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:08:21 AM) tee: just type it out on google
(12:08:36 AM) tee: or the chorus at least
(12:08:40 AM) bluenerv: yeah. i dun remember much of it. i just knows i'm missing some =)
(12:09:00 AM) tee: i dam swear
(12:09:06 AM) tee: i used to think im mexican or black
(12:09:12 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:09:16 AM) tee: with daytons
(12:09:18 AM) bluenerv: i'm always black yo
(12:09:20 AM) tee: and hydro
(12:09:25 AM) tee: dam tv
(12:09:38 AM) bluenerv: i was cruzin on my gt dyno ;)
(12:10:02 AM) tee: i had a GT mach one
(12:10:19 AM) tee: with arraya rims..seal bearings
(12:10:23 AM) tee: 3 piece crank yo
(12:10:29 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:10:47 AM) bluenerv: well i gotta retro mag now =)
(12:10:59 AM) tee: lol
(12:11:46 AM) bluenerv: http://www.buzzillions.com/dz_182969_mirraco_signature_retro_mag_reviews
(12:11:48 AM) bluenerv: hehe
(12:11:55 AM) bluenerv: sittin at work in my office =)
(12:12:03 AM) tee: LOL
(12:12:13 AM) tee: i didnt like those freestyle bikes
(12:12:16 AM) tee: too heavy
(12:12:18 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:12:27 AM) tee: i sucked at goin off jumps
(12:12:29 AM) bluenerv: my dyno was a racer bike
(12:12:37 AM) tee: the pedal spins around and spikes my chin
(12:12:44 AM) bluenerv: i needed this bad for for my new weights ;)
(12:12:50 AM) tee: lol
(12:13:08 AM) bluenerv: this one is light though
(12:13:18 AM) bluenerv: not like them old freestyle gt bikes
(12:14:49 AM) tee: dam theres this song i forgot
(12:15:23 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=td2e9KBIbgU
(12:16:23 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:17:22 AM) bluenerv: damn. dats from his first dre released album
(12:17:25 AM) bluenerv: old shit
(12:17:25 AM) tee: nortorious big sky is the limit
(12:17:34 AM) tee: ya those days
(12:20:05 AM) bluenerv: damn. use to remember all them lyrics
(12:20:10 AM) tee: ahha ya
(12:20:13 AM) bluenerv: shame i fogets =)
(12:22:30 AM) bluenerv: http://youtube.com/watch?v=jooJca4sXyY&feature=related
(12:22:32 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:22:38 AM) bluenerv: there's your domino
(12:22:43 AM) tee: lol
(12:23:13 AM) bluenerv: ahmad. back in the days =)
(12:23:14 AM) bluenerv: damn
(12:23:17 AM) tee: ahha
(12:23:20 AM) tee: thats all you
(12:23:21 AM) bluenerv: when i was a little kid =)
(12:23:24 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:23:26 AM) tee: i wish i was a lil taller
(12:23:30 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:23:30 AM) tee: big baller
(12:23:35 AM) bluenerv: rabit in a hat
(12:23:38 AM) bluenerv: with a bat
(12:23:39 AM) bluenerv: =)
(12:24:11 AM) bluenerv: aights yo
(12:24:19 AM) bluenerv: we cd shoppin this weekend =)
(12:24:23 AM) tee: ahha
(12:24:35 AM) tee: why
(12:24:37 AM) tee: just dl it
(12:24:41 AM) bluenerv: cause i wants it all =)
(12:24:48 AM) bluenerv: cd quality
(12:24:50 AM) bluenerv: =p
(12:25:06 AM) bluenerv: for when i gets my bumpin sound systems =)
(12:25:12 AM) tee: lol
(12:25:18 AM) tee: how much you wannna spend on it
(12:25:27 AM) bluenerv: haha. i'm making it list
(12:25:38 AM) bluenerv: gettin it a bits at a time =)
(12:25:49 AM) tee: lol
(12:25:53 AM) tee: the system?
(12:26:58 AM) tee: cant forget this song
(12:27:03 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fKBfeZnl4Jc
(12:27:25 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QjBH12NWYrI
(12:27:40 AM) bluenerv: oh shit. outcast
(12:27:41 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:28:20 AM) bluenerv: i have that album. alienz
(12:28:21 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:28:52 AM) tee: oh shit this song
(12:29:01 AM) bluenerv: i liked funkdafied
(12:29:27 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jOqEn9L3GNQ
(12:30:30 AM) bluenerv: oh shit.. almost fogots bone thugs n harmony!
(12:30:35 AM) tee: lol
(12:30:48 AM) bluenerv: i have them too =)
(12:31:06 AM) bluenerv: i think dats when charlie started to listen to music =)
(12:31:07 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:31:29 AM) tee: lol
(12:31:38 AM) bluenerv: gots history on him tho. i started back in 4th grade =)
(12:31:55 AM) tee: hey who sings this song
(12:32:00 AM) tee: let me send it to you
(12:32:14 AM) bluenerv: dunno that title ;)
(12:32:15 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:32:52 AM) bluenerv: dude
(12:32:53 AM) bluenerv: jay z
(12:32:55 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:33:23 AM) tee is offering to send file 01 Track 1.wma
(12:33:31 AM) Starting transfer of 01 Track 1.wma from tee
(12:34:07 AM) tee: cannot for the life of me figure who sings it
(12:34:41 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:34:52 AM) Transfer of file 01 Track 1.wma complete
(12:34:53 AM) tee: k gogoggo
(12:34:54 AM) bluenerv: lets see if i hears it =)
(12:35:29 AM) bluenerv: doesn't sounds old
(12:35:41 AM) bluenerv: i knows the sample though
(12:35:43 AM) tee: like ll cooj j days
(12:35:49 AM) bluenerv: ll cool j samples
(12:35:54 AM) tee: sounds like lougin
(12:35:57 AM) bluenerv: yeah
(12:35:58 AM) bluenerv: remakes
(12:36:12 AM) tee: kinda
(12:36:12 AM) bluenerv: actually... more remixin his samples
(12:36:14 AM) tee: dif lyrics
(12:37:05 AM) bluenerv: sounds too much like swv / ll cool j =)
(12:37:13 AM) tee: i thought it was total
(12:37:34 AM) bluenerv: i don't think i evers heard total before
(12:37:48 AM) tee: total is the chicks that sings ll cool js chorus
(12:37:51 AM) tee: on lougin
(12:38:35 AM) bluenerv: ahh
(12:38:45 AM) bluenerv: maybe it's her then =)
(12:38:54 AM) bluenerv: which is why she can sample it =)
(12:38:58 AM) tee: lol
(12:40:12 AM) tee: ahh ha!!
(12:40:46 AM) bluenerv: wha. found it?
(12:40:54 AM) tee: shades- tell me
(12:41:28 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:41:46 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=61o60nYS_Uo
(12:41:48 AM) tee: yay
(12:41:50 AM) tee: i love youtubers
(12:42:18 AM) bluenerv: still tryin to beat me
(12:42:19 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:43:06 AM) tee: ghost town dj's
(12:43:14 AM) bluenerv: ahh
(12:43:17 AM) bluenerv: ghost town
(12:43:18 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:43:42 AM) bluenerv: youz be ridin cute little bikes when i waz listening to these :-D
(12:44:21 AM) tee: lol
(12:45:16 AM) bluenerv: haha. genuine
(12:45:32 AM) tee: red light special
(12:46:06 AM) bluenerv: inoj =)
(12:46:18 AM) tee: tag team
(12:46:28 AM) tee: whoomp there it is!!
(12:46:33 AM) bluenerv: wow. quad city dj's
(12:46:34 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:46:40 AM) bluenerv: comon ride the train!
(12:46:48 AM) tee: lol
(12:47:40 AM) bluenerv: we gotta be missing mo =)
(12:48:08 AM) tee: ya theres alots
(12:49:46 AM) tee: jocelyn enriquez
(12:49:51 AM) tee: rockell
(12:50:10 AM) tee: in a dream
(12:50:26 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:50:52 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GRvugJ_lR8M&feature=related
(12:51:10 AM) tee: some freestyle mixed in
(12:51:10 AM) tee: lol
(12:51:40 AM) tee: bunch of pinays
(12:51:50 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:52:51 AM) bluenerv: dude. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXTIXaRvOFA&feature=related
(12:53:01 AM) bluenerv: do you miss me!
(12:53:02 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:53:16 AM) tee: theres a version thats the best
(12:53:58 AM) bluenerv: yah. the original is better
(12:54:21 AM) bluenerv: nu flavor!
(12:54:22 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:54:32 AM) bluenerv: lil suzy!
(12:55:25 AM) bluenerv: oh shiznits.. let me bring you back to your old schools
(12:55:26 AM) bluenerv: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13vzmQoy95Y&feature=related
(12:55:28 AM) tee: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kX5VLMQeBuk
(12:55:34 AM) bluenerv: haha. buffy - first love!
(12:55:35 AM) tee: oh ahah
(12:55:49 AM) tee: i like katalina
(12:56:46 AM) bluenerv: lol. sirina paris =)
(12:56:53 AM) bluenerv: sarina.. =)
(12:57:02 AM) bluenerv: innerlude!
(12:57:11 AM) bluenerv: still loving you =)
(12:57:24 AM) bluenerv: forte - could this be love
(12:57:56 AM) tee: dam theres to omnay songs to enjoy
(12:58:02 AM) tee: one voice
(12:58:31 AM) tee: One Voice - Never Leave Your Side
(12:58:44 AM) bluenerv: haha
(12:59:13 AM) bluenerv: we'll keeps them asian songs for tomorrow =)
(12:59:14 AM) bluenerv: lol
(12:59:18 AM) tee: lol
(12:59:23 AM) tee: theres soo many
(12:59:24 AM) bluenerv: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ukFl0o0ApDU&feature=related
(12:59:29 AM) tee: that never made to radio
(12:59:31 AM) bluenerv: london beat =)
(12:59:44 AM) bluenerv: i've been thinkin about you
(12:59:45 AM) bluenerv: lol
(01:03:57 AM) bluenerv: aights. tomorrow i build me this list =)
(01:04:03 AM) tee: k
(01:04:13 AM) bluenerv: then we shops. lol
(01:04:31 AM) tee: hahha gay

my fling with opportunities

closing the door to past chapters seems a bit easier now that i've had a decent amount of practice. disappointment is something i can expect and manage much better in a timely manner. life was meant to be carefree and enjoyed one day at a time, such as the lessons taught by my parents when i was younger. its no wonder i see them happy more often than not.

hence life is great! i've taken my opportunities and didn't let them pass me by, even if they fell through. makes for living in the present a bit easier since i hardly have to wonder about the past and those what-if questions.

so far my pursuit for a new job is still in the works and the current count is 0 for 1. i've discovered my weaknesses and shall improve before the next attempt. my pursuit for in relationships on the other hand is 0 for 2. lastly my business opportunities is still pending, but i'm quite hopeful with this one since i don't see reasons why it will fall through. we have the ppl experience, money, and the foresight along with motivation.

the future is a constant change given the actions of the present. you have no future if you don't take the risks to follow your dreams. and on that note... i solute those risk takers. good luck!

wish me luck!

waiting on approval for the yogurtland franchise and recent job interview!

did i not mention that 2008 was a year of CHANGE?! =) tis the year to let my actions do the talking. for all those also aspiring for some change... JUST DO IT!

those that support my crazy ideas, endeavors and antics... i THANK thee DEEPLY! for those that have doubts and disapprove, well... i've got nothing nice to say, so the next time we meet i shall just smile. =)

did i mention that i'm finally taking a real vacation this year? paris here i cometh! it's been too long since my last real trips/adventures overseas. vacations here are fun, but its just not the same going somewhere where the language is other than english.

oh and if YOU are reading this eileen... april is coming around SHORTLY! guess what happens in april my dear long time friend... =) i know that you are moving to the east coast (nj/nyc) but don't you think we should give US a chance? seriously, i've known you forever... well except those 5 years where i fell into some wormhole, but i've managed to come back out of that time warp. ;) we get along well don't we? i can't see our friendship falling apart if the relationship doesn't workout cause we started out as good friends.

i can honestly say that i'm over my little drama ordeal. and if you are truly over yours neither of us will be rebounding since i think i'm waaaay past that stage. i'm not looking for a relationship to replace someone, but because i really think we would be great for each other. i love that you have great optimism and persistent at what you want to do and achieve.

think about it. lets pickup where we left off in sept/oct. worst case you'll be moving in aug anyways. you can get rid of me then. ;) you'll only have to put up with me for a few months. =)

[blog] interview questions

1. Given a sequence Q of n numbers (positive and negative), the maximum subsequence of Q is the contiguous subsequence that has the maximum sum among all contiguous subsequences of Q.
2. Given an array of n integers (positive and negative), find a pair of integers in the array that equates to a k value.
3. Given an array of n integers (positive and negative), find the k largest integers in the array.
4. Given a link list of n elements. The list will always contain 1,000,000+ elements. Find the 100,000 element from the end of the array.
5. Given a link list of n elements. These elements can point anywhere and may even point back to a prior element in the list. This is when you have a cycle. Write a routine to detect cycles in this link list.
6. Given n marbles all of equal weight except 1 and two scales, find an algorithm to find the heaviest marble.
7. Stack (push, pop, peek); minPeek (push, pop, peek, peekMin)
8. Write a routine to get the fibonacci of n both recursively and with a loop.

first round of job search

well today marked the first day ever that i have submitted my resume to requiters. both my jobs after college were kinda given so i didn't have to work on getting them. lets see how this turns out. =) i'm confident that the resume is superb for the positions i would want!

btw.. the first round is for jobs in nyc! :-D

concerts journal

my concert events up to now:

1. death cab for cuties @ greek theatre w/ eileen
2. hellogoodbye @ wiltern theatre w/ judy, kent and annie
3. james blunt @ wiltern theatre w/ eileen

guess there isn't too many yet, but hopefully that will change before i'm too old to deal with the crowd let alone young kids. =)

RIP Heath Ledger

my condolence and regards go out to the family of heath ledger. may he rest in peace.

just another day in irvine =)

you would think that i've learned my lesson from the last speeding ticket that got me 2 points and a reckless on my record... NOPE! got pulled over by another fat pig on a bike. what's up with pigs always sitting around hiding. i mean seriously, 48 in a 30 on the back roads of campus...

i guess this is what i get for always saying i'd NEVER get a ticket in irvine. there's always a first for everything!

oh happy days. =)

j

the new 30's

ok. now i'm in my 30's. what now? so far so good health wise i presume even though that is my prognosis and not really from a doctor. i hate doctors. i can't even remember the last time i've been to one, but it's been over 10 years for sure. i figured if there is something wrong, i'll find out when it's too late hopefully be drugged up while i wait to pass on. =)

well. gotta run and play some vball with toan and his family. at least i'm trying to keep healthy.. think that will work? hehe. if not, oh wells. such is life.

adios vatos

ok. so i haven't blogged in awhile. been keeping myself busy as usual.

i realize i'm truely getting old. i said old, not wiser. none the less, my body can't take the mid week bars and clubs like it could have back in college. for awhile the bars and clubs have died down after david and comp all got gf's. now the peeps are coming out again and it's all good and fun, but DAMN tiring. how long can i keep this up for? dunno. just so long as i'm not sitting at home doing thing, i'll keep on going for as long as it takes or when my body gives out.

as i'm typing out this blog, i'm trying to keep my eyes open till lunch break so i can take a quick nap. computers really bore me now so i really have to move onto the next career soon or own my own cafe/auto shop. blah blah blah.. zzzzzzzzzzz

Week ending May 25th workout schedule and weights used.

Day Target Excerise Sets Reps Weight
Monday
chest
incline bench press 3 8 45
dumbbell bench press 3 8 55
dumbbell flye 3 8 35
abs
reverse crunch 2 10
Tuesday
biceps
barbell curl 2 8 65
seated incline curl 2 8 30
cable curl 2 10 80
triceps
close-grip bench press 2 8 35
lying triceps extension 2 8 40
triceps pressdown 2 10 70
Wednesday

back
barbell row 3 8 25
wide-grip pulldown 3 8 100
seated cable row 3 8 100
legs
leg extension 3 8 70
leg curl 3 8 70
calves
leg press 2 10 45
Thursday
shoulders
barbell shoulder press 3 8 30
seated dumbbell shoulder press 3 8 50
dumbbell lateral raise 3 8 15
abs
reverse crunch 2 10


I try to keep my reps at 8. If 8 is more than what I can do then I'll increase the weights. So there we go. This will get you in and out of the gym in 30 minutes or so depending on how busy the place is. =)

ENGINE SWAP COMPLETED!!!!
another priceless moment. =)

ahh.. it's been awhile since i've updated my short term goals so here i goes for my own record.

there has finally been progress on that weight gain. as of RIGHT now i'm 123lbs.. but that'll be 120 or so by morning. where the heck does that weight go when i'm just sleeping! progress makes me happy, so let the progress continue!

i've done my fair share of salsa for the time being. think i'll take a break from that since it pretty much blocks out my entire saturday. BUT i have decided to actually sign up for a guitar class at IVC. that'll be lots of fun i predict. i think i'll concentrate on guitar for the time being along with turning black over the summer. i've already gone through my first layer of skin so far and summer hasn't even begun yet. guess some sunblock is needed aye? ;)

aight. that's it for now. gotta catch some z's.

happy 420 homies!

for every end there is a new beginning. likewise for every beginning there has to be an end. life is an infinite loop of beginnings and endings. each moment is a slice in time. all the slices aggregated over our lifetime defines who we are and what we are about. any blemishes we've created can never be overlooked nor forgotten. doing so would only deny our existence. to exist is to think and act according to what we perceive is our chosen path. life does not come with a guide for us to rely on for directions, but we do the best we can to travel the road most interesting.

and with that thought, i depart leaving you with the notion of the road least traveled. you are at a fork in a road, which path would you be most likely to take?

this is a test of the new publishing features from google. looks really promising if this gets posted. and here we go...

and here goes a modification to the post. where is that darn title...

La Belle Et Le Bad Boy by MC Solaar

Sounds corny, but Leili suggested it. Turns out to have a catchy tune after all. And one of my favorite shows Sex and the City used it on one of their season finale when they filmed in Paris. Here are the lyrics and the song is to the right in my flash player. Just hit the play button.

Mc Solaar - La Belle Et Le Bad Boy Lyrics

* the [] areas are an english translation

Ils s'etaient rencontres sur les bancs d'l'ecole
[They met back in school]
Entre une heure de colle de maths ou d'un cours d'espagnol
[Between a math class and a spanish class]
C'etait un fille fun fana de football
[She was a soccer fan]
Lui ne craignait pas les balles, c'etait le goal
[But he didn't fear balls, it was the goal]
C'qu'il lui promettait c'etait des ballades en Corvette
[Only thing he promised was rides in a Corvette]
Pour l'instant en survet, il volait des mobylettes
[But for now, he was stealing scooters]
Mais entre eux c'etait toujours complicite
[Between them there was always complicity]
Escale sur un piedestal un reve delimite
[Stop on a pedestal, a clear dream]
S'il devenait triangle, elle serait rectangle
[If he became triangle, she would be rectangle]
La belle et le bad boy, le triangle rectangle
[The beauty and the bad boy, the triangular rectangle]
C'est comme passer de Joe Dassin a Jodeci
[It's like going from Joe Dassin to Jodeci]
Un vrai truc de ouf style pur clip de R&B
[A real R&B videoclip drama]
Elle vit le grand amour, qui commence dans la cour
[She's living the great love, that begins in the court]
Se poursuit dans les tours et rime toujours avec toujours
[Continues during tours and always rhymes with 'toujours']
Mais le contexte est plus fort que le concept
[But the context is sronger than the concept]
Son mec se jette dans les flammes et il se lave avec.
[Her man jumps into the flames and showers in them]

Chorus:
Les sous ensembles dans les grands ensembles s'assemblent
[Small ensembles in big ensembles assemble]
La belle et le bad boy(x3)

[The beauty and the bad boy]
Les sous ensembles dans les grands ensembles s'assemblent
[Small ensembles in big ensembles assemble]

Les sous ensembles dans les grands ensembles s'assemblent
[Small ensembles in big ensembles assemble]
Pour gagner des sous ensemble
[To win money together]
Parlent sans faire semblant de faire des coups ensemble
[Talk without giving the impression of doing business together]
Et si c'est sanglant. Ils plaident devant Dieu ensemble. Vu
[And when it gets bloody, they plead God together. See.]
Ils etait convaincant, elle etait convaicue
[They were convinving, She was convinced]
A croire qu'aujourd'hui s'arreter etait exclu
[To think today that stopping was out of the question]
Ils trafiquent des faux billets avec des reseaux slaves.
[They traffic counterfeit money with Slavic networks]
Balancent la concurence. en France c'est un delit grave.
[Beat the competition. In France it's a serious offense]
Risque pour les pommettes, les mecs sortent des baumettes.
lui n'a qu'un truc en tete, c'est la quete de sa Corvette.
Ambiance paranoiaque. L'equipe adverse traine
[Paranoiac environment, the adverse team lags behind]
Des projectiles partent quand une BM freine
[Projectiles go off when a BMW brakes]
Quand elle tombe, il a les larmes aux yeux
[When she falls, tears drops off his eyes]
Deux balles de 22. Vingt deux ans adieu
[Two .22 bullets. Twenty two(years old) Goodbye]
Le contexte est plus fort que le concept
[The Context is stronger than the concept]
Son mec s'est jette dans les flammes il faut qu'il se lave avec
[Her man jumps into the flames He has to shower in them]

fabricated love?

is there such a thing as first love? it's hard to say if such a notion exists. i personally thought that it had existed, but now i've come to realize that maybe being the first had a lot of influences over what i thought was love.

to be honest, i still don't know what love is. i'm sure that one day i'll find out when i least expect it. girls are very emotional creatures. which makes them easy prey for certain guys. they know a much about love as guys do, but they can be fooled a lot easier as well.

so here's a poll for those lovers out there. how did you meet your other. are they your first? if they were your first, then how long did you wait from the prior breakup before you met the current.

au revoir

et puis je fume

french song i found most relaxing to sing to

this song was sung by the group pink martini titled

Sympathique

Ma chambre a la forme d'une cage
Le soleil passe son bras par la fenêtre
Les chasseurs à ma porte
Comme les p'tits soldats
Qui veulent me prendre

Je ne veux pas travailler
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement l'oublier
Et puis je fume

Déjà j'ai connu le parfum de l'amour
Un million de roses n'embaumerait pas autant
Maintenant une seule fleur dans mes entourages
Me rend malade

Je ne veux pas travailler
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement l'oublier
Et puis je fume

Je ne suis pas fière de ça
Vie qui veut me tuer
C'est magnifique être sympathique
Mais je ne le connais jamais

Je ne veux pas travailler
Non
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement l'oublier
Et puis je fume

Je ne suis pas fière de ça
Vie qui veut me tuer
C'est magnifique être sympathique
Mais je ne le connais jamais

Je ne veux pas travailler
Non
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement l'oublier
Et puis je fume

---

translated the songs means...

my room is a cage
the sun streams through the window
the bellhops are at my door
like those little soldiers
who want to take me away

i don't want to work
i don't want to lunch
i want to only forget
and then i smoke

long ago i knew the smell of love
a million roses
couldn't smell as sweet
now a single flower
in my way
makes me sick

[chorus]

i am not proud of this
life that wants to kill me
it is magnificent
to be simpatico
but i have never known this

[chorus]

it's a very soothing sound listening to it in french. i'll rip it from my album and post it someday when i have the time.

au revoir

new year, new goals

lets see... this year's new goals are in no particular order:

french <- taking at ivc now
salsa <- taking at ivc now
shields sailing <- spring/summer
gym/120lbs <- constantly working at (still hovering 115)
drawing <- currently sketching again
vacations <- in the works for china, peru, or grand canyon camping trip

some of these are in the works and a few are in future planning. tis a new year and more fun times to come. looking forward to spending more time with friends as always. hopefully we'll go to more dance clubs since it's fun and i can always use more practice. ;)

and for all my 420 folks... it's time to light up! time to party it up in 07 since i've finally gotten the hang of it. ;)

back from my cruise

first off merry christmas to everyone. what a year it's been thus far. we've still got a few days left before kicking off the new year of 2007.

anyone who knows me knows that i love driving. fast, slow, far, near... it doesn't matter just so long as i am behind the wheel and driving anywhere. ever since i started driving, i've always used it as a way to vent and meditate.

day drives are great for cruising along a peaceful scenic route, the sun's warmth on your face and body while the wind's breeze cools you down from the burn building upon your skin. listening to old tunes brings you back into the past and the world continues to move forward around you.

night drives, just like the day, are also great to cruise along. it's best when the air outside is cold or chilled driving with the heater blasting. the mixture of both the cold and warmth is difficult to describe, but it leaves you with a great sensation. there is very little visibility of the environment around you as you drive except for the stars twinkling in the sky and the moon's night light guiding you in the night. this is when i can meditate best with very little distractions going on except the mildly stimulated senses.

cruising route 66 was another great adventure i have yet to complete next time around. this christmas eve weekend judy and i got as far as the national petrified forest in arizona before we had to turn around in time to come back for christmas. the route starts on colorado boulevard around santa monica and ends in illinois i think. thanks to judy for planning and organizing the trip. i had a lot of fun and great experiences.

pictures will follow soon.

precursor to this year's recap

i can't believe an entire year is almost over with a blink of an eye. where has the time gone? there were moments that seemed like time had frozen, but maybe that was just me. it was almost yesterday when i started this blog. the year has been full of ups and downs and a LOT of chaos.

looking back i think i kept myself quite busy, which seems to have worked out nicely. there were a few accomplishments and a few goals that got pushed aside, but that's just life. i think i may have distance myself from a couple friends and reunited with some past ones. i hope i didn't offend anyone in my mentally crazy state of mind.

well... since my workout buddy has just canceled on me, i'll be heading out to the gym myself today. today's blog with be short like my recent posts, but the gym comes first. it really is my new addiction among habits.

i'm sure i'll post another recap before this year is over or maybe first thing next year.

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finally got a chance to watch breakup and click this weekend. good movies, even though i thought michael newman should have stayed dead. would have been more powerful that way. breakup at least ended in a realistic way. the moment that shook me was when brooke told gary that she didn't feel the same way after his elaborate, yet typical guy's epiphany after the problem has been spelled out for him.

to be continued...

daily shuffled thought

Lifehouse - Blind Lyrics

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

---

As you leave or depart anyone that's been an integral part of your life, it always does feel like a part of you has died. I love the lyrics to this song. I guess at first it seems a bit negative, but if you really think about it it turns out sometimes a part of you dying is a good thing.

As humans, growth does not always have to be physical. Mentally we all need to grow, but in order to do that life has to change. Leaving certain parts of us behind, leaves room for the additional changes. Sometimes it's sad in the beginning, sometimes it's exciting, yet other times we are just scared of the unknown. Change is only made easier if we don't resist, but adapt to our new experiences.

The past year of my life seems like I've grown more than I ever have in the past 5-10 years. The passage was a rough one, but I'm able to see ahead as if the fog has slowly lifted.

I hope that someone finds this song as inspirational as I have. If not, keep your head up and remember that life is not worth living in the past. Make of it your best with the time you have left. Enjoy every breadth of experiences life has to offer.

sex and the city

okay. so maybe i'll start my own version of carrie bradshaw's column sex and the city. i've watch enough episodes with my roomate eddie that i have some contributions of my own.

tonight's topic is of course about girls, women, and whores. what's the difference you ask? a buddy of mine and kent's from austin told us once that girls love to date assholes, women date distinguished men, and whores love to seek rich men. he didn't say it in those exact words, but you get the picture.

the problem is that there IS no difference in why the female gender are more attracted to these types of guys. so lets sit back for a moment and try to understand what it is that attracts females. of course this is from a guy's perspective so each reader and formulate his or her own opinion on the matter.

put yourself in a girls position at bars and clubs. why are girls hanging out at bars and clubs? some are just having a night out with their girlfriends and enjoying the dance floor with their groove on. some are actually out fishing for a guy to have fun with. none are really there to look for any long term relationships. you would be pretty lucky if you think that you can catch a guy at a club that you actually have a long term relationship with.

from a guy's perspective, we go to clubs to hangout with our buddies and for some eyecandy. it's also a good place where you can practice building your confidence and if you're lucky have a short term physical relationship. in other words, sex. any guy who doesn't think about it has got to be a virgin... or gay. i don't believe that a single normal everyday guy does not have any thoughts about sex throughout the day unless he just doesn't get out and look around.

so back to what attracts girls to guys at clubs. at first i use to think that it had a LOT or even everthing to do with looks. for some that is true, but still those types are not impossible to attract. from pure observation it's REALLY easy to see that girls respond to confidence, even from assholes at clubs. yes, most guys that go pickup girls at clubs are assholes. we're not looking for anything long term. seriously, men are not attracted to little girls intellectually. who would you feel talking to a television. communication is only one way, the tv. and what content do you usually get from girls... shows, fashion, food, shopping, yadda yadda.

intellectually stimulating? i think not. sexually attractive... maybe. potential for short term, definitely ideal. easy to breakup without the messy emotional attactment. am i an asshole for strategizing like that... if i were to rationalize it, no. girls are young and don't know any better. from experience come maturity. to a young girl though, i'm just another asshole on their resume.

now women. they have matured pass the early stages of experiments and heart breaks. at this point in their life, they are through playing with boys and are ready to settle down. some have avoided the BS all together and kept on the track of being career oriented and independent. guess what though.. they are looking for men who have lots of ambition and are motivated just as they are or more. these men also have charisma, and what comes along with that? yes confidence! this scenario is the ideal for the long term relationships.

lets talk about whores. these are your typical gold diggers looking for a sugar daddy to spend money on them in return for short term relationships. guys with money... now what guy with lots of money lack confidence? none that i know of. are these guys assholes? you betcha. they have money to flaunt and girls just come flocking. in this case confidence is just a coincident, but none the less it's there and displayed. these guys don't have to work as hard as assholes with little or no money, but they can still attract whores if not girls as well.

where do i fit in these types of personalities. i don't quite know yet. nice guys DO finish last, so that's one thing i would definitely avoid aspiring to be. nice guys are TOO passive and would let opportunities pass them by waiting and waiting...

and there was my first attempt of a post similar to carrie bradshaw's column from sex and the city. i will have to completely live the single life to report back on my observations and experiments. until next time, good hunting.

milestones

well... summer is coming to an end soon so i'd like to list my accomplisments thus far.

i've managed to cut down on the cost of living these days thanks in part to eddie, du, and hans. i really wasn't soooo hard of a task. total material purchases since i've left ibm has been roughly less than 200.

i've completed my capri sailing classes, got rated, and now a member of a sailing club. this past weekend i was able to take christine and kano out for some sailing off newport. this weekend i'm taking john and his gf laurie out for a whirl as well. i was asked to help with classes taught by jim, whom also works in ics as our facilities manager. i'll take him up on the offer starting next weekend since it will be with harvey mud (sp?) students and it seems like it'll be fun.

as for my health, today was my highest weight of 115.5. definitely happy to see those numbers. i'm now benching 155lbs as my max and 135lbs for my reps. would like to get to 200lbs soon, but i would also like to weigh 130lbs also. today i started riding bikes with eddie for an hour. we rode nearly to spectrum from our place. wasn't that far, but eventually well probably get further. of course he's got a beach cruiser and i have some sort of mountain bike, but we'll manage. street bikes are for whimps. ;)

my tan is coming along nicely from all the sailing.. i'm nearly black except for my life vest tan line. those should be going soon as i don't really need to put one on any longer since i'm not required to wear one now that i'm rated to sail alone.

as far as books, i've completed the tao of physics a few weeks ago. maybe a month, who knows. going to move onto the next book once i figure out what it'll be. grad school has taken a different direction towards philosophy. i figure i don't need a masters or phd in ics. i know a bit more than the average grad already. plus i'm looking at the kind of work they do and it's a bit dated. always thought they would work on more bleeding edge technologies. career wise... i will be able to advance without getting additional degrees. now i just want to expand my philosophy interests to an acedemic or scholarly level so i can discuss my theories and thoughts with others who would know what i'm talking about most of the time.

at this point i am behold religion and following doctrines that someone else interpreted or came up with from some profound thought. i am now the lone traveler whom chooses his own path in life. faith and destiny are a joke. life is far more complex with all it's intricate interactions to rely on letting someone else decide my future.

music video time

Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol

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post birthday weekend

friday night @shark club
saturday night @v2o
apparently i was dancing more at the shark club than i had at v2o. could have been because i drank more at the first rather than at the latter. the girls at v20 were also more intimidating because they were prettier i thought.

according to dave and friend anh, they weren't all that. so now i have to wonder about these two girls david is dating since they are suppose to be hot. dave, you bastard! share one!

that's all for tonight. getting some rest now so i can be awake for the concert tomorrow with death cab for cuties.

quote of the day

the best advice to make your dreams come true is to wakeup!

nough said. if you can't figure it out, you're not ready or mentally capable yet. for what its worth i got that statement from church today. usually i don't get much out of church, but today we had a visiting pastor so every now and then we'd get a new insight to walk away with that is non christian specific messages.

i can appreciate the message because it is forward thinking and also relates to the same message i've posted earlier on about execution. at some point some of our dreams solidify and become reality.

good day

tis always a good day when girls roll down their windows to say hi to eddie and i again at the same corner on alton and culver. i love that corner of the street. ;) i wonder if they are the same girls from last time. hard to tell since it was actually a different car they were in. this time eddie said hi back while i just looked to see how young they were. i think they're still in high school, but hey... no complaints if they wanted to say hi first. =)

hopefully next time we'll have older women hitting on us instead. ;) then i wouldn't have to feel so bad. oh well...

i guess life is once again good to me. all the sailing i've done this summer has kept me busy and yet relaxed. it's also kept me away from computers for a bit after work hours. guess the only reason i've been on this much is because hans is on his vacation in japan so i have a little more work than usual to do, but i think i'm handling it ok so far.

i don't have much of an insight into life today so back to some light reading for work and then off to bed. can't believe i've changed my schedule so much that i'm actually tired around now. i guess i can accomplish more in life when i work normal hours, let alone sleep normal hours like the rest of the world!

chow for now.

guess who's back

haven't posted for awhile, so i felt the urge to do it tonight. so i'm torn between how i should feel about ray leaving again. just when i thought one of my friends was moving back here for at least a few months, he's got another opportunity in radio over in china.

don't get me wrong. i always wish that every one of my friends make it big one day and become as successful as they can hope to be, but its hard when they do it so far away.

first i hear that kano is going to school in chicago. then just a couple days ago after be so excited about ray coming back, i hear that he's off again in two weeks. so from now on here's what i'm going to do. i will try my best to not become emotionally attached to friends. there's gotta be a trick to that all. i've detached myself from computers unless it is for work. i mean the computer that i'm on now hasn't been installed for over a month now. the old me would have had this up the night of.

i think i can also detach myself from friends as well... at least emotionally. if anyone else leaves... well. that's what they have to do. for former coworker was right. once i accept reality (which is relative), but my reality, i'll be happier. i don't care what others think reality is.

in the next five years, i hope to finally finish getting my parents their place. then i hope to be a nomad forever. life would be much better without ANY attachments, physical or emotional.

ok. now for some words from the wise:

Let us forget the lapse of time; let us forget the conflict of opinions. Let us make our appeal to the infinite, and take up our positions there.
-Chuang Tzu

The absolute tranquility is the present moment. Though it is at this moment, there is no limit to this moment, and herein is eternal delight.
-Hui-neng

In this spiritual wold there are no time divisions such as the past, present and future; for they have contracted themselves into a single moment of the present where life quivers in its true sense ... The past and the future are both rolled up in this present moment of illumination, and this present moment is not something standing still with all its contents, for it ceaselessly moves on.
-D.T. Suzuki

i thought those quotes from the tao of physics were interesting seeing how i'm on the section of quantum field theory. particles such as electrons/photon can scatter in any direction in time and space.

how does that relate to us? i take it from this angle. take the notion of no past, present or future. EVERYTHING is now. the past and future are concepts we associate to time since we've always learned that time moves forward. with new discoveries and advances in physics we know that that is not the case ALL the time.

so why live life in the past or future? is there a point? ever since i was young i think my parents have always kinda hinted at that notion. i would always ask them what we would do tomorrow, when, etc. you know what my dad tells me?! we'll know when tomorrow comes. i always hated that anwser. guess what?! i kinda live by that same rule. i've never planned anything. my rule was you'll know when i know. i was happier.

with ages brings more and more memories of the past. i mean, it makes sense. you have MORE and MORE memories as you live out each day. BUT those are just memories. you learn from them and move on.

so what's my message. don't live in the past and don't rely too much on tomorrow. what matters is THIS moment. and here's a cliche... live it to the fullest! drinking, smoking, sailing, driving, flying... i will experience it all before i get put six foot under. my last breath will NOT be filled with any regrets.