another restless night

so even after some alcohol indused sleep, i still end up tossing and turning all night. so here i am again bright and early posting this blog. i've always had a problem with shutting my brain off at nights, which is why i tend to sleep listening to music, but these days its impossible even with sleeping aide.

what is it about fate and destiny that irks me? i use to think that i should let life runs it course cause everyone is destined for something in life. the more i think about that the more i think that was just a lazy way of going through life. its easier to believe that fate will run its course and that everything will be fine in the end. its much harder to except responsibilities in life and shape destiny the way you want to see it.

i'm sick and tired of sitting around and waiting for fate. this post is to remind me of that message and that i should try my best to create my own destiny regardless of the obstacles in my path. will this plan work? of course its not guaranteed and there are risks associated with plan, but i say its worth those risks. the largest rewards in life usually involves high risk decisions and actions. that's a fact proven over and over by all the success stories that we hear about. i have to keep in mind that behind those success stories are also failures. the trick though is not to look at them as failures, but as learning experiences which provides value and opportunities for growth.
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as an update as to what i'll be doing in 2006, i'm going to start working up in olympia, washington starting january 3rd. i'll be travelling back and forth every week and hopfully i get to meet all my friends while travelling still. that's the one part i'll miss the most if i start to get consumed with work, which i'm hoping is not the case.

david, i'm gonna miss your company man. you've been hanging out with me every day for golf and working out. hopefully you'll take me up on my offer of free stay up in washington and come visit so we can hangout at the company's expense. =) i'm already picturing us hanging out at the local internet cafes and hopefully we can find a 24hr fitness too cause i don't want to be out of routine. i have a goal of reaching 120 lbs in 2006 and i'm falling behind because of all the issues going on.
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to finish off the post for today, i spent the evening with my friend eileen. first we headed off to the block to pickup tickets for our new years event. then we had dinner in westminster before heading back to a long night of watching the first season of 24. the show is good, but a bit slow in the beginning. after a while there were more complex plots than you could probably remember all at once. i think we ended on disk 2 with one more episode to go. each disk has 4 episode that run an hour long each, even though they seem longer than that. =)

finally we tried to head to sleep, but i don't think we were THAT tired yet. ended up talking for over an hour about things. i'll leave it at that for now, which also ended the night.