another song posting =p

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Artist: The All-American Rejects
Song: Swing Swing

Days swiftly come and go
I'm dreaming of her
She's seeing other guys
Emotions they stir
The sun is gone
The nights are long
And I am left while the tears fall

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed By a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?

Dreams cast into the sky
I'm moving on
Sweet beginnings do arise
She knows I was wrong
The notes are old
They bend, they fold
And so do I to a new love

Did you think that I would cry
On the phone?
Do you know what it feels like
Being alone?
I'll find someone new

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed
By a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?

Bury me
(You thought your problems were gone)
Carry me
(Away, away, away)

Swing, swing, swing
From the tangles of
My heart is crushed
By a former love
Can you help me find a way
To carry on again?

the pink project

just came back from the pink project fund raiser for breast cancer and rape victims. it was put together by one of my high school friend, valarie patterson. its been sooooo long since i've seen anyone new from back at bishop montgomery high school. i have to admit i love that school even though i was only there for one year. i still remember the retreats we had going to the mountains and all. it was also nice to be able to share our feelings with friends. private schools are great. =)

well tonight valerie organized this fund raiser that david told me about and kieu was also helping to spread the word so that more people were aware of the event. kieu was a friend from way back in the days of grade school. man, i wonder what most of my grade school friends are up to these days. i can't believe i've actually spent 9 years of school with them and yet some of us has lost touch. strange how some people come and go out of your life while others just seem to float around forever.

any cancer event is pretty important since it hits pretty close to home, even though both my mom and brother have hopefully benign tumors rather than the cancerous ones. but in any case, the thought of either having cancer or even maybe having cancer is pretty scary. the more people that come out to support the cause, the better in that we can gather enough money to hopefully improve the treatments or even get rid of cancer/defects all together in our genetic composition.

here's a picture of tina, the girl from napolean dynamite which made those trinkets and also napolean's girlfriend. surprisingly she actually had a band and they played the last set of the night before the event was over.

uncreative title =p

happy birthday danny! this post is a little late, but at least i called you on the right day. :-D sorry i can't be there this weekend to celebrate your bday. =( if it makes you feel any better, i also have to give up my whistler trip. =( double boo. damn project has me working weekends now.

oh well. i've come to a decision today that i should go work for uci back in the ics group. i'm updating my resume and submitting it next week so i can roll off onto a new job after this project is over. once i get my masters in software engineering i can finally work my way into a software architect role. i love to develop code, but i also love to design my own solutions to an application as well. i still lack the formal training in that area. i've had enough development practice while in college, but never at the design level.

quote from brandon bruce lee's tombstone

"because we don't know when we will die, we get to think life as an inexhaustible well. yet everything happens a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. how many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, some afternoon that's so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? perhaps four or five times more. perhaps not even that. how many more times will you watch the full moon rise? perhaps twenty. and yet it will all seem limitless."

for brandon and eliza
ever joined in true love's beauty



i personally think this quote is inspirational in that one should always appreciate what he/she has rather than always complaining about anything that is lacking. if you go through life counting everything, then you're missing out on the actual enjoyment of life.

president's day

today was a very productive day indeed. wokeup around 10am and drove into seattle with my coworker steve. i parked in a lot on 1st street by the water front and it costed $20! it wasn't too bad i guess since we didn't really have to go around and look for parking. we later found out that my other coworkers that came down from vancouver from their weekend trip parked in a free spot right down by pike's place market. oh well. =)

steve and i had a chance to stop over at the first starbucks and we grabbed a couple drinks since it was a chilly day out. we also posed for pictures in front of the store. its funny how steve was shy at first to take a picture fearing that we'd look like tourists. hehe. these days i don't give a damn what people think of me. i just do what feels right. that's been my motif all my life, but i sometimes don't always live by it. now a days i REALLY don't care as those around me can attest to. i guess its a good thing if i'm to meet someone new in my life since i would really want her to know what i intend upfront. no playing games anymore.

oh... the best part of the day... we got a chance to go visit bruce lee's grave! brandon lee was also burried right next to his dad of course. it was weird posing for pictures by their grave, but when i think about it... they would like the fact that we paid homage to their grave site. i think that's the kind of people they were since the both of them were in the movie spotlight. with fame comes lots of recognition and of course we also have respect for the work that bruce has done in terms of his martial arts and embracing new ideas based on the traditional foundation. sometimes it takes a brave person to challenge the status quo and that's the tradition in america.

well. that's about it for now since i'm dead tired. i'll post a couple pictures of today, but you can checkout the rest in my gallery as usual.

sunday night | monday morning

i can always find comfort in my new home, the hotel room. having come back home this past weekend felt too weird. i loved visiting my friends back home, but i don't feel right calling irvine my home anymore. i know i've only been away for only a month, but it feels like forever, plus the fact that my room is all in pieces it just looks different i guess. yet, it's still that same room where my pooks use to come visit me.

this weekend i've decided to move out and become a nomad, living out of my luggage for the next few years if i can help it. i've already given my notice to christine. as much as i think i use to love irvine at one point, now its the last place i want to be ever. i wonder where i'll be in the next 5 years this time around. apparently my last prediction was a bit off. i'm sure it'll still be interesting to see where i end up yet again.

wow, now that i think about it, my 10 year high school reunion is suppose to be this year. i'm looking forward to see what everyone is up to. hmm. wonder if i will see someof the high school girls that i had a crush on. =) wonder if they will even remember me since i was always so quite around girls in high school.

well its getting late now. going to head to bed so i have energy to hangout in seattle tomorrow since we have no work since its president's day. is this post a little better judy? i didn't cheat by posting song lyrics. =p of course i'll still get those lyrics out once in awhile, i just don't have a song in particular for today. :-D

salute from washington state!

bye bye metal!

today is a short post... MY BRACES ARE GONE! i can't stop smiling no matter what! i can probably get mugged, shot, whatevers! i'll still be smiling! :-D

oh. here's a sneak peek of a pic eddie took of ray and i. that's me at 110 lbs minus the braces. good thing you guys don't see my love handles now, after all the drinking i've done. ;)

last night before my braces are gone

wow. feels so weird to be back in my room. it brings back so many memories, ones that i want to leave behind but can't unless i move out. if all goes well with finding traveling projects, i'll be moved out in june once du moves into my room. at least that's my current plans. no more irvine for me if i can help it. i just have to bare with it this weekend and next, after that i'm up in washington for a month straight. then off to another project, hopefully not local.

my braces come off tomorrow!!! on that note, i'm outta here with the following song:

Move Along
by
The All American Rejects

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

valentine's day

The Blower's Daughter Lyrics
Artist(Band):Damien Rice

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies

I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes off OF you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off OF you
I can't take my mind off OF you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new

late monday post

since i'm backed up on song lyrics and i'm tired from working out and food coma, tonight's post is just a song lyric:

Artist Daniel Bedingfield
Album Maid in Manhattan
Song If You're Not The One

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

the song itself is now on my flash mp3 player. check it out for those that are not familiar with the song lyrics.

oh yeah. i forgot to mention that i just finished the book 'art of war' by sun tsu. actually it was translated, but either case i didn't think it left a lasting impession since mostly everything in the book was what i considered common sense. maybe it wasn't so common for people back in those days? who knows. time to look for another book to keep me busy while traveling. any suggestions?

nite!

friday!

finally friday! just finished packing and now i'm heading to bed. this weekend i'll be in cambell again with jen and danny. yahoo! i get to enjoy more of jen's cooking. yummmmy. =) getting pretty tired so i'm just going to post another song of the day that caught my attention today.

Lyrics
Audioslave - Doesn't Remind Me

I walk the streets of Japan till I get lost
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
With a graveyard tan carrying a cross
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like studying faces in a parking lot
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like driving backwards in the fog
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

I like gypsy moths and radio talk
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like gospel music and canned applause
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like colorful clothing in the sun
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I ilke hammering nails and speaking in tongues
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything

[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

Bend and shape me
I love the way you are
Slow and sweetly
Like never before
Calm and sleeping
We won't stir up the past
So descretely
We won't look back

[Chorus]
The things that I've loved the things that I've lost
The things I've held sacred that I've dropped
I won't lie no more you can bet
I don't want to learn what I'll need to forget

I like throwing my voice and breaking guitars
Cause it doesn't remind me of anything
I like playing in the sand what's mine is ours
If it doesn't remind me of anything

the lyrics are exactly how i feel some days. i'll just do anything for the moment that doesn't remind me of the past. its the best way for me to move on right now. hopefully i won't be back in irvine any time soon except for removing my braces. that reminds me that i need to start looking for projects that require traveling. i really need to be on the road for the next 5 years or more till i burn out or become successful with my hookah business plan.

i'm already starting to build a larger network at work and trying to get ideas of where i want to be and what i want to do. so far i have lots of options and most require a big change in my life. the path ahead of me will definitely be an interesting one for sure and i'll look forward to it.

tuesday post

posting kinda late tonight even though i'm dead tired. i have the song of the day that i wanted to have up today.

CRAIG DAVID - Walking Away Lyrics

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

i basically just like the chorus. the rest doesn't really relate to how i feel. basically i just want to leave everything behind as so i should. still easier said than done, but i'm getting much better at it. i've gone through lots of changes and there's still more to come.

sorry i don't have pictures in recent posts. they will come very soon.

Wednesday Post

Here's a copy paste of a joke my coworker IM'ed me this morning. jokes always make me laugh no matter the mood i'm in... most of the time. =)

A man, returning home a day early from a business trip,
got into a taxi at the airport. It was after midnight.

While en route to his home,
he asked the cabby if he would be a witness.
The man suspected his wife was having an affair
and he intended to catch her in the act.

For $100, the cabby agreed.

Quietly arriving at the house,
the husband and cabby tiptoed into the bedroom.
The husband switched on the lights,
yanked the blanket back
and there was his wife in bed with another man.

The husband put a gun to the naked man's head.

The wife shouted, "Don't do it!
This man has been very generous!
I lied when I told you I inherited money.

He paid for the Corvette I bought for you.

He paid for our new cabin cruiser.

He paid for your season New York Giant's tickets.

He paid for our house at the lake.

He paid for our country club membership,
and he even pays the monthly dues!"

Shaking his head from side-to-side
the husband slowly lowered the gun.

He looked over at the cab driver and said,
"What would you do?"

The cabby replied;
"I'd cover his ass up with that blanket
before he catches a cold."

super bowl sunday

go seahawks!

...
=( my future team lost!
...

oh well. i found another interesting poem for tonight. here it goes:


If

If freckles were lovely, and day was night,
And measles were nice and a lie warn't a lie,
Life would be delight,-
But things couldn't go right
For in such a sad plight
I wouldn't be I.

If earth was heaven, and now was hence,
And past was present, and false was true,
There might be some sense
But I'd be in suspense
For on such a pretense
You wouldn't be you.

If fear was plucky, and globes were square,
And dirt was cleanly and tears were glee
Things would seem fair,-
Yet they'd all despair,
For if here was there
We wouldn't be we.

ee cummings

again this poem is simple to comprehend so i don't need to interpret this one either. time to sleep and rest for my flight tomorrow morning since i'm catching a cold. this was another fun weekend with danny and jen. yay. hehe. almost feels like my fridays back at home when i use to come over and hangout (minus one person).

oh. i also have a song lyric i want to post so i can remind myself to look for it.

Dylan song, "Most of the Time"

Most of the time
I'm clear focused all around,
Most of the time
I can keep both feet on the ground,
I can follow the path, I can read the signs,
Stay right with it, when the road unwinds,
I can handle whatever I stumble upon,
I don't even notice she's gone,
Most of the time.

Most of the time
It's well understood,
Most of the time
I wouldn't change it if I could,
I can't make it all match up, I can hold my own,
I can deal with the situation right down to the bone,
I can survive, I can endure
And I don't even think about her
Most of the time.

Most of the time
My head is on straight,
Most of the time
I'm strong enough not to hate.
I don't build up illusion 'till it makes me sick,
I ain't afraid of confusion no matter how thick
I can smile in the face of mankind.
Don't even remember what her lips felt like on mine
Most of the time.

Most of the time
She ain't even in my mind,
I wouldn't know her if I saw her
She's that far behind.
Most of the time
I can't even be sure
If she was ever with me
Or if I was with her.

Most of the time
I'm halfway content,
Most of the time
I know exactly where I went,
I don't cheat on myself, I don't run and hide,
Hide from the feelings, that are buried inside,
I don't compromise and I don't pretend,
I don't even care if I ever see her again
Most of the time.

early saturday morning

dang you danny for keeping me up so late. =p i'm going to be dead tired tomorrow. haha.

here's a poem that we saw in a movie today that i thought was interesting:

One Art

The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

---Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

-- Elizabeth Bishop

poets i've studied back in HS and have forgotten till today after watching "in her shoes". the meaning, as cameron diaz explains it in the movie, was how the author was trying to detach herself from her lost. the detachment shows when she starts listing off real tangible items that anyone could lose and then she starts moving to losing a continent. what was this lost that bishop was talking about in her poem? well in her last stanza its evident that she was talking about a lost of a pretty close friend.

here's the second poem that maggie dedicated to her sister during rose's wedding in the movie:

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

ee cummings

the poem is self explanitory so i don't have to interpret this one. its a great poem and cameron diaz read it so well, she made me want to cry. i did get a little teary eyed, but that's cause the movie was really good.

almost friday

i'm dead tired tonight after hitting up two bars. so again tonight's post will be a short one. here's another song i came across today. i know i shouldn't be listening to this type of music for... well.. not for awhile, but i find myself listening to ALL the lyrics of songs recently. its just something i can't help avoid. again i've realized that i don't just miss gretchen because i'm alone or anything. i have plenty of people to hangout with and yet i still miss her. i just don't want to be with anyone else.

Case - Missing you
Standing here looking out my window
My nights are long and my days are cold
Cause I don't have you
How can I be so damn demanding?
I know you said that it's over now
But I can't let go

[1] - Every day I want to pick up the phone
And tell you that
You're everything I need and more
If only I could find you

[2] - Like a cold Summer afternoon
Like the snow coming down in June
Like a wedding without a groom
I'm missing you
I'm the desert without the sand
I'm the one without a band
I'm a ring without a hand
I'm missing you

Driving 'round thought I saw you pass me
My rearview mirror's playing tricks on me
Cause you fade away
Maybe I'm just hallucinating
Cause my loneliness got the best of me
And my heart's so weak

[Repeat 1]

[Repeat 2]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Said I'm, I'm missing you

[Repeat 2 (2x)]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...

valentine month

in dedication to feburary i've found poem with an interesting hidden dedication to a former love of poe. you can figure out who this poem is dedicated to with a simple decoding technique. try to figure who, by taking the first, second, third, etc.. letters of each line. =)

to clear up any confusion... the first 4 letters of her name is f.r.a.n.

A Valentine
by Edgar Allan Poe

For her this rhyme is penned, whose luminous eyes,
Brightly expressive as the twins of Leda,
Shall find her own sweet name, that nestling lies
Upon the page, enwrapped from every reader.
Search narrowly the lines!- they hold a treasure
Divine- a talisman- an amulet
That must be worn at heart. Search well the measure-
The words- the syllables! Do not forget
The trivialest point, or you may lose your labor
And yet there is in this no Gordian knot
Which one might not undo without a sabre,
If one could merely comprehend the plot.
Enwritten upon the leaf where now are peering
Eyes scintillating soul, there lie perdus
Three eloquent words oft uttered in the hearing
Of poets, by poets- as the name is a poet's, too,
Its letters, although naturally lying
Like the knight Pinto- Mendez Ferdinando-
Still form a synonym for Truth- Cease trying!
You will not read the riddle, though you do the best you can do.