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i realized i'm posting less and less these days. actually i'm on the computer less also. after having to look at one for so long at work, i just get sick of looking at one after work. so if you're reading this steve... now you'll know why there will be less posts.

initially i started this out as a theropy for getting most of what i was thinking about, but i'm just too lazy after getting back late from going out every night to relax. what i'm doing now is keeping a journal and doodle pad with me so i can jot down my thoughts any time during the day.

i can't wait till tomorrow though. time to hit up vancouver for the weekend and just hangout checking out the local scene. of course there's going to be lots of drinking involved cause saturday is april 1st. i'm going to leave my laptop in olympia so i can't be contacted online. i now understand why some people just refuse to own a computer at home. as soon as i quit ibm and give up my laptop, my goal is do fill up my time so that i won't need a computer at home also.

so here's a challege to my readers. one night i was out drinking in seattle and saw a quote in a bar... it goes "as we think and act, so becomes the world". i don't believe that is the exact quote, but i want to find the person who made that statement. i've already tried googling the phrase, but no results. does anyone happen to know who came up with that quote?

ok. i'm getting pretty tired now. still have to finish my laundry and pack up so i can head into vancouver tomorrow. time to get off of the laptop and doodle in my journal/sketch pad.

happy belated st. patrick's to everyone!

ok. didn't get a chance to post last night cause the site was unavailable for me. yesterday after work i drove into seattle with david. i must say i'm getting use to driving around seattle now. we first hit up the international district and randomly walked around to find a nice place to eat.

finally after walking back and forth, we decided to eat chinese even though we were looking for japanese restaurants. in hindsight, it was probably a good idea not to eat japanese cause it wouldn't soak up alcohol very well, hence the night i threw up after eating japanese and drinking. i want to head back to the same restaurant to try their crabs. the guy eating next to us had a whole crab and it looked realllllly good.

after dinner, i drove david around seattle while looking for parking. i ended up parking on madison between 3rd and 2nd. we walked down to 1st and started to head towards the bars... there are tons! we ended up only hopping 3 bars since i had work the next day and i had to drive home still. i gotta say, i love the irish crowd. we went to 2 irish bars and they were both nice and cozy. personally i like the coziness and the irish folks. the first irsh bar, virginia inn, we met some guys there that we chatted with. there was this old guy there that was an interesting character. we think he owns the place too since he stands at the end of the bar and has a way of talking to the bartenders. he also lives above the bar! must be great. you'd have to see the area, especially on 1st street! oh yeah, another guy was there trying to get some waters for the girls with him. we ended up chatting for a long time and he forgot what he was there to get! LOL.

the 2nd irish bar was reallllly cozy. they had these nice seats that i sat on waiting to sober up before driving. i don't think i sobered up much, but it was realllly comfy. it looked like VIP seating or something since that sitting area was different from the rest of the bar. did i mention they only have 1 type of beer.. it was brewed from dublin. overall these guys were completely nice and friendly. i mean, david and i were like the only 2 asians in both of those bars, even the first bar we went to had very few. its totally different from the asian scene. soo many different cliques and they all keep to their groups.

last night made me realize how much i don't want to be an asian. the more longer i'm up here, the more i feel at home. its sad to know that i'll be done with my project may 5th. i guess the good thing is i won't have to work weekends afterwards. and hopefully i'll be out of ibm too. i'm getting tired of incompetent managers. i mean, where do they find these people? why can't i get paid 6 figures to be an idiot also. i don't mind taking the heat from clients.. not like it really matters. plus i can deal with clients anyday. its managers i have a problem with.

i'm hungry.

another thursday night at the brotherhood tavern

ok. tonight i limited myself to one beer and one smoke. i don't have any more advil since i used up the last batch that gretchen left for me awhile back and i didn't want to sleep with a headache , hence my limitation. it wasn't too bad though after my buzz wore off. i was still a bit relaxed and mellowed down from a long week of work. i use to think that i could never get stressed, but now a days i just have too much weight on my back. with age comes responsibilities which i guess i haven't found a method to deal with quite yet.

drinking and smoking seems like its taking a toll on my body. tonight while i was showering i started to see drips of red on me. i don't remember the last time i had a bloody nose, because i don't think i've had one before. tonight i think i had my first bloody nose. don't know exactly what's happening. oh well. if something bad happens, i hope it takes me quick.

going to sleep now. maybe i just need some rest. who'd a thought, i'm sleepless near seattle. =p

weekend of work

what a crazy week. i spent this weekend with my coworkers in the office working. usually i wouldn't mind, but just the nature of this project vexes me. the project manager has no clue what's going on business wise and technically. but enough of that for this post. i think every breakfast, lunch, and dinner we complain so much about the project, i'm just sick of it.

right now i'm just chillin and watching music video's on mtv2 since mtv is just full of junk shows now. tonight i'm updating my resume so i can submit it for the position over at school. i'm REALLY looking forward to getting out of my division within big blue. i'm going to miss meeting new people, travelling, and some minor perks. my new position though will be my old team i used to work with before, so i won't be getting into something unexpected. it'll be kinda nice to have an actual office location since i really haven't given that a try as a fulltimer.

as i walked a stretch of olympia to the local grocery market, i realized that i will soooo miss this type of atmosphere. a lot of people complain that there's nothing to do, but i've always wanted to live in a small town and actually get to know my community. i can't really do the same thing at home. its just not the same type of atmosphere. in irvine everyone pretty much keeps to themselves. you'd have to make an extra effort to get to know your neighbors.

better judy? i didn't cheat on my post today even though i'm dead tired. i just feel like sleeping and never waking up if i can help it.

venting before i head to work

ok. what's the deal with indecisive people? or people that say they don't care where we eat, but when someone suggests something, they always have something to say after the fact? it gets a little annoying because its just so contradictory of what people say and do. when i say i don't care where we eat, i REALLY don't care. here's the problem, when everybody says i don't care either, i get ticked cause then i'll just suggest something and someone has to say ahhh i don't feel like that today. dooood, tell us what you want then. i can't read minds and i know most others can't either.

just had to vent about indecisive people before i head downstairs to the hotel lobby to go through this process AGAIN. so what's the moral of the story?

stay true to your word, or else don't say it. and the other point... tell me/us what's on your damn mind people!

wasted

man. threw up tonight.

more lyrics

Ever The Same

Rob Thomas

We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding me
Like someone broken
And I couldn’t tell you, but I’m telling you now

Just let me hold you while you’re falling apart
Just let me hold you and we’ll both fall down

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you, forever in me
Ever the same

We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it’s cold and we’re scared
And we’ve both been shaken
Look at us man,
this doesn’t need to be the end

Just let me hold you while you’re falling apart
Just let me hold you and we’ll both fall down

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I’ll be there for you and you’ll be there for me
Forever it’s you
Forever in me
Ever the same

You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you’re no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I’ll not forget
But I can only
give you love

longer days

sorry again judy. have to post the words to Home.

MICHAEL BUBLE LYRICS

"Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be allright
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home


to me home has an even deeper meaning. home is really whom i use to be, more carefree and happy at a certain point in my life. one day i will experience that bliss again. for now though, i can find distractions to take my mind off of the past, but i can never forget. i know i never will either.

oh canada

this was an interesting weekend. eileen flew in late on friday so we both didn't really have dinner till after i picked her up and we headed over to seattle. we were suppose to go to crocodile cafe for some dinner and live entertainment, but when we got there i found out that they stopped serving food already. at that point i was still hungry so i told jake, my friend that we were suppose to meetup with, that i had to eat first otherwise i wouldn't be able to drink anything on an empty stomach. so we split and walked a couple streets to find a nice place to eat at.

dinner was good. we had some oysters for our appetizer, while eileen only ordered their clam chowder special and i had their grilled ahi tuna. the food wasn't bad, but it wasn't the best that i've had. the best part for me is always the dessert and cappuccino. i can have dessert and cappuccino everyday and what's even better is trying it at random places that i'm not familiar with. which was why the next day was even better!

so after dinner we decided to drive back to my hotel in olympia since its an hour drive away and i can't really speed anymore. it takes me forever to get around these days cause i'm going 60-65 most of the time. how the hell can people drive so damn slow. that's when i realized that i can't really live here if my passion is to drive. i would have to give up driving for sure if i were to move to a state like washington where you'll see a cop every 10-20 minutes or so.

we got back to the hotel and was pretty awake once we got up to the room. i took a shower too because i can't really sleep with gel still in my hair so that woke me up even more. we didn't really get to bed until maybe 4 something since we were up talking and watching this one show on mtv, which i forget what it was called, but the premise was that these parents select 2 dates for their daughter that they think would be best for her. the kick is that she's always dating someone that both her parents can't stand. in the end of the show after she goes out with her dates, she gets to decide if she wants to stay with her long time boyfriend or one of the new guys her parents have selected.

i like the show because most of the time the girl picks her boyfriend of course. then i realize i needed someone in my life that would stick with me through thick and thin no matter what the case. i mean i would do the same if i'd really loved the person i was with. i'm i just crazy? what ever the case, i like that show and seeing how many times a girl chooses her boyfriend over someone that seemed just right.

personally i think you can't really know a person until you've been with them for a certain period of time. i mean you REALLY have to be with a person for their real personality to show. most guys, even myself, go out of their way to try and impress, etc etc before we've actually gotten comfortable with someone. then our true selves come out. i guess that's not the case for some guys still i guess. i also assume girls are that way too. you can't really tell how she would be like in the long run until maybe living with her and waking up every day with her.

anyhow i can tell this post will be long since i haven't posted in some time. so the next day i woke up around 9 for some odd reason i couldn't sleep. eileen was still sleeping so i decided i would try to get some work done. unfortunately my computer has been really slow and i can hardly get any productivity out of it. so i listened to some music also while i was waiting for my computer to crunch away. eileen finally kinda wokeup around 11 since i was sneakingly making noise for her to wakeup. ;) haha. oh yeah i was also trying to talk to her to make her wakeup also. eventually it worked. =) so we didn't get out of the hotel till 12 something and headed into seattle to grab some lunch.

let me just say this weekend has been one adventure after another. heading towards seattle my rental was running low on gas and the light has been on for awhile since we didn't really find a convenient spot to fill up. we went off of the first exit M.L. King since i thought that sounded like a big enough street to have a gas station... i was wrong. who'd a thought it was a tiny street. i would think martin luther would have a better street named after him. =) so the next street we tried turned out to have a station AND the station was RIGHT in the international district where we were going to get lunch AND it was RIGHT across from the japanese market that jake took me to the first time where i can get free parking with a minimal purchase price from their market. it was PERFECT.

after lunch and driving around seattle trying to find the i-5, we decided to let a coin toss if we should drive over to downtown vancouver to meet up with judy and have dinner and all. and of course fate decides that we DO drive there. we didn't have directions or anything but just knew that we had to drive up the i-5. AND we didn't have our passports, but it didn't matter. =) so one, we could have been denied going into canada and had to drive all the way back after getting to the the border, or two, we'd be held in canada and not able to return on time to the states. none of that mattered since we really didn't care one way or the other. i love being totally random. being with eileen and judy just bring that out of me since those two are just plain crazy fun. =)

so once we got into canada after some harassment at the border we just drove north not really knowing where vancouver was. ;) while driving a little further north there was this info booth that was closed, but they had a map so we briefly glanced at it and found out that the freeway we were on was good and that if we kept heading north that we'd eventually end up in downtown vancouver. sure enough we got there fine and drove all around vancouver to discover downtown. i was basically driving up and down the streets trying to keep in mind where i was relatively. i'm pretty proud of myself since we actually found the street that judy's hotel was on. we parked around there and walked around since judy was still heading back from somewhere. man... let me just say that it was WISE to always have your cell phone CHARGED! eileen's phone was at my hotel room running out of battery AND mine was also dying ALL while we were trying to get in touch with judy. so here's another adventure, my phone eventually died while trying to find out where judy was. basically we were just about to give up when eileen spot judy across the street!!! let me just say that i nevered really believed in fate before, but it got us to vancouver AND fate also got us to meet up with judy EVEN with dead cell phones! what a great adventure. these girls never fail me when it comes to adventures... just like vegas!

so here's my observations in vancouver... there are LOTS of cute girls walking around and the ratio of girls to guys were like 10:1. can you believe that! i mean, holy sweet mother of...! i'm glad that david and i are going to stay in vancouver for 4 days end of march. first of all april 1st use to be a special day for me, but its just going to be another date after awhile. anywho, i'm totally excited to hangout with david in downtown vancouver. there seems to be LOTS of clubs and cafe's to hit up. need to work on the courage to talk to girls, but hey.. when you have david as your wingman.. i don't need to work so hard. =)

what a weekend... i'm probably leaving out lots of details, but there's just to much to capture in words. over all it was totally me. random. ^_^